A Mother's Day Special

I wish I could say this Mother's Day has been wonderful so far but it hasn't. I barely got any sleep. When we went to bed last night Scott had some random health insurance bad news for us. They are trying to get group insurance (so far we've been on Cobra) but since there still aren't that many of them, it is going to be one of those very high deductible plans until they get more people. Now, I appreciate that it's better than not having insurance at all, but for some reason that stressed me out really bad and I wasn't able to fall asleep. Do your husbands fall asleep with no care in the world as well? That drives me absolutely nuts! How do they do it? When I go to bed is when my brain starts working over time. All the thoughts about all there is to do the next day and all I never managed to get done during the day start creeping in and it takes me a while to just settle down to sleep. Also, there's always the stress of wondering if the baby will wake up to nurse all of 5 minutes after I manage to fall asleep. Last night was just worse than usual for some reason. So I didn't fall asleep till about 1 am. Then, all of 15 minutes later Liam wakes up screaming. Must have had a bad dream. Scott goes to him. He wants mommy. So I go in. He calms down instantly. But it takes him a while to go back to sleep. My son alright! So I just spent about 25 minutes staring at the ceiling in Liam's room because I knew if I fell asleep, the baby's cries will wake all of us. I go back to our bedroom while praying that Liam doesn't notice that I left his room. I go to the bathroom. I get back to bed and baby Aiden wakes up wanting to eat. He nurses well. I actually manage to get enough energy to put him back in his bassinet. I take forever to fall back asleep. About 2 hours later baby Aiden decides he needs to eat again. I never regain enough resolve to put him back in his bassinet so I spend the rest of the night in a twisted position and wake up with a really stiff neck and a really aching back just in time to being Mother's Day. Yay!

My breakfast choices are very limited now. I can't have cow's milk dairy products or soy because it makes the baby's poops super explosive. Way more explosive than the usual breast feeding baby poops. I also can't have eggs because they seem to cause Aiden's eczema to get a lot worse. So Scott makes me beef bacon and coffee and that's pretty much what I have for my special Mother's Day breakfast. But then again, some people don't even get that much so I am grateful.

I wanted a laundry free day today considering I do about 2 loads of laundry per day. But I didn't get my wish because I didn't manage to get all the laundry done yesterday. So I had to do laundry yet again.

Baby Aiden took a shorter morning nap than usual.

Then Scott tells me that in addition to his trip to the UK in July he has to go on a short trip in the US sometime in June. I am now stressing about finding help over night for when he is gone. With two babies waking up at night, I can't actually do it all alone over night.

Now both babies are napping but for how long I ask?

So yes, it is Mother's Day and it feels just like any other day to me. It's exhausting and not that much fun at all.

But at least I get a lot of love from all my boys.

Hope my fellow mothers out there are having way more fun on this special day than I am.